ALRIGHTY!!!! i'm finally finishing up my blog of new beginnings and much success with part two. i've wanted to do this for a while, but some things were happening personally and i couldn't focus on it like i wanted to. but now i'm ready!!! ok, so from part 1, i was talking about what was going on in the month of may. i pretty much covered a good portion of the topics of discussion for the exception of my personal relationships of my family and friends, new and old. so let's get started...
i think i'll start with family first. i normally have no problems with family. for the most part my family is well. but i did have some scares this year so far. well, first it started with a death, my Aunt Louise. she was 93 and it we knew it was coming but we didn't want it to though. we loved her very much and still do...RIP Aunt Louise....but later down the line (around and between april and may), two of my immediate relatives (on my mom's side) had different things goin on with them. my uncle started with his aortic dissection (google it for a good description). it was so unexpected but it happened and it scared everyone. my grandfather had one two years ago, and it didn't turn out too well for him. i mean, he's still here with us, but his progression is slow to say the least...but he is doing better, praise the Lord. but back to my uncle, he is doing better now, but it could have been bad. luckily, his good health is what saved him. he was in great shape because he was recently body-building for a while. but he can no longer do that, or heavy lifting for that matter any longer. and what is sad about that is is that really made him happy. but he'll get better again. but now this is somewhat stressing me out because this might be hereditary....and THAT IS NOT THE BUSINESS!!! but anyways...yay for the recovery Uncle Rob....now my Aunt Jackie's case was just as crucial if not worse. one of the healthiest, and health-conscious people in my family (she has a damn ph.d in health education people) had a minor stroke. when i tell you i was so scared for her guys, i jumped right up and went to dc. i was already preparing for that trip because the week she had her stroke was the same week of my father's birth (i'll talk about that in a second). but it stressed me out. that was like the last straw.
when my uncle had his incident, i was a little scared and sad. scared because it had happened to my grandfather, and he didn't recover in the way i thought he would, and that had everybody trippin out. and then sad because that is my mom's little brother and the look on her face when my grandmother called and told us.....i wanted to cry but i had to keep it together for her because she was going through sooo much at the time. but the incident with my aunt, i just couldn't take it for a second. my aunt is like....my everything. i love her so much. i care about her ENTIRE life because she stresses the most out of my entire family COMBINED. if it's not about money (which she has plenty of ), it's her relationship, and then her job....that damn job. ugh, it gets me so upset, even writing about it. but when i was up there, my mom and i went to the hospital and talked to her and my aunt and i had a serious talk....a grown-up talk, and she listened to me. we had had one of these a few months ago. she was hearing me, but she didn't listen because she had too much shit on her mind...but she listened this time. she didn't have a choice. it was either do or die for her situation because we can't have anymore strokes...that's a NO-GO. just no more stress period...high blood pressure + stress + hours of sleep that you can only count on one hand = DEATH...and i need her to live. i need everyone to live. i need everyone to just stop stressing. i mentioned it in my facebook status that week because it was just saturated throughout my family, and it was freakin me out more than ever.
so to end this half, STRESS is bad. i want my family to just stop, enjoy life and not take it so head-on, full force. i mean stress is natural when you're trying to accomplish something in life, but do you have to pay for it with your health? sorry, i vote NO. just deal with it calm and rationally because i would loooove to see you in front of my face on thanksgiving, at the dinner table, instead of in a hospital somewhere. and i thank you....and i love you....my Cooke fam.
ok, i'm still talking about family....buuuut, it's my other side now. my father's side. i don't have too much to say about them yet because i'm getting to know them now. it took me a long time to get to this point. you know, it starts with my father, and me and my father's relationship had an existence, but didn't really get started until the time of his passing, but i loved him a great deal....love u dad....but back to the brown fam, what i love about them is that they never gave up on me. and for that, they have my full attention for the rest of my life!!! lol....i recently attended the annual brown family reunion at the end of may, and they took me in like time never passed. i felt like a stranger so it was still awkward a little bit, but that will change because they will see more of me.
now on to my friends....yay!! lol...i love the friends that i have, my close ones. we have all grown into adults in a short amount of time, but that makes our friendships with one another so much better. there are some that didn't last, among my circle that is, like i hoped, but they're still connected to each other through me....there is still hope for them (my optimism talking!!!) but aside from my old friends, i have made some new ones....and one in particular has their own special category. but yeah i don't wanna say too much about it because it's still in the beginning stages, but i'm very happy to see where it's going. i haven't been this happy, personally, in a long time so i'm gonna stick to this lol. i see a change in me and so do my friends that see me. NEW BEGINNINGS!!!! i have to say though, it did start out rough lol, but that good ole internal organ that keeps the blood pumping through my body? it told me what to do lol....but anyways, anyways, that's the deal people.
alright, so i think i've covered everything i was feeling based on this blog. i'll probably blog some more though. i'm really getting into it this time around. i just have a lot to say and that special someone is inspiring me to say it....2 points for you!!! lol....
ok i'm done...bye....holla back...see you on the flip side....
LOVE AND BLESSINGS!!!!
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