To new beginnings, and much success... Pt. 1

ok so this is the first time in a while that i have written a blog, but for good and bad reasons. 1, i was just being lazy. 2, i was working. 3, i didn't have too much to write about. and i told myself this year, in doing this blog, i wasn't going to write about pointless things. so nooow, i have some things to write about.


alright, so the month of may has been a somewhat busy one for me thus far. work, social calendar, and just personal relationships with family and new friends seem to have started heavy this month. i'm guessing that this is the time to kick everything i want to happen for me in life into overdrive before its too late. but sometimes, i can get so nervous and scared. I just wonder if i have what it takes to succeed. but i have to think positive and claim my success. Like one of my favorite artists, Brandy, said "I'm claiming much success for me this year, because the sun has to shine somewhere..." so that will be my motto for 2010, unless changed otherwise.

but back to this month, i went to my first (and probably last lol) all-white party. it was a very exciting event to attend. it was my first club party, as well as my first DC club experience (shoutout to Hogates). i saw people i hadn't seen in a long time, and everyone looked so good....well not everyone, but it was good to see a group of black young adults look classy in white lol. although things didn't go as planned like they were suppose to...ugh, ridiculous lol...there was still much fun that took place, thanks to my friends that i stuck with...shoutout to Naya, Kima, Kima's new beau, and her friend. AND the fact that i saw my beautiful cousins at the party just took it over the top....repping for the fam with class and beauty was what i needed. I didn't do too shabby myself either...shoutout to EXPRESS lol.

now, there was a new years' resolution that i said i was gonna stick by. if you happen to have read one of my previous blogs, it had something to do with independence. while i have plenty of that, i would love to take someone along with me on my adventures, but i'm not gonna beg, so i end up doing things by myself which is fine...but that might change soon lol. anyways, i'm saying this because i was suppose to go to this concert in DC on the 8th of this month that i was very excited for, but my concert buddy just hasn't been able to be in contact, so i've been hesitating. NO MORE OF THAT. I mean the last one i did go to though was something that i will never forget. Janelle Monae is phenomenal...i'll just leave it that lol. so yeah, i need to get back into my concert mode, immediately.

ummm...oh ok, WORK. so work has been very exhausting lately, but it has kind of paid off though. i mean i do need another one pronto, but for the time being i'm very much satisfied. i have made a lot of good friends and have just been more into work than just doing it and leaving without really getting to know the people i work with. there are times where i hate working but it's the people that make it worth coming back to, and of course the money....shoutout to my co-workers and the summer movies lol.

ok, i don't want to write anymore because i want to save some for part 2 lol...so stay alert for it.....

MUCH LOVE.

support real music....GET INTO THEM!!!

my firends...mi amigos...mes amis....

"friends....how many of us have them?" for me, i have lots of them and i cherish them all dearly. it may not seem like i do at times, but i do. they help me get through whatever i may be going through at a certain time in my life. lately though, i feel as if i'm neglecting my friends....maybe one in particular lol. the point is, i love my friends and there is no need for them to feel as if i am dodging them in any kind of way. i might see one for a brief moment, and i might see another for a few hours, but the fact remains is that the love stays the same all around. there is no doubt i have had many friends in my lifetime...many have come and gone like the seasons change, and others have stayed around throughout life's experiences. the ones that stick around.....well, they always have a place in my heart and will never be forgotten. SO DON'T GIVE UP ON ME!!! (insider)

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it's ok sometimes....REALLY!!!

so next friday, i'm going to see Timbaland perform at the NorVa in norfolk, va. i have to say, i am very excited about this. i haven't been to a concert since october of 2008....JANET JACKSON....*thinking of the memories*....ok, and i'm back lol. but i am going and as much as i would love to take someone or someone come along with me, i have decided to go by myself. this year, one of my many new years' resolutions is to do more things independently than to always ask or invite people to tag along. i mean....i get it....really. sometimes people just don't have the money at the time to do the things you might want to do, or they're just not interested in that kind of thing, and i totally understand. so, with those reasons being, i'm going by myself and that's totally ok with me. i personally don't understand why some people think it's so bad to go to events by yourself, or when you're asked who's going with you, you reply " i'm going by myself," and they reply back with "why are you going by yourself?!" BECAUSE I WANT TO!!! lol....it's always good to be around people that you know already and enjoy certain activities together; but being by yourself sometimes, you might enjoy it on a whole other level and meet new people in the process. i just know that i will no longer sit around and wait for someone to accept my invitation, and then when the time comes they can't do it and i'm no longer in the position to enjoy that certain event because i don't have the money now. NO SIR, NO MA'AM. (the message: DON'T HOLD BACK!!!)....so on january 15th, i will be at the NorVA, somewhere in the middle of the crowd getting my life from his setlist. i could possibly gain some new friends from this concert. and i might even see some people i already know there, so i'll just have to wait and see. OH!!! i forgot.....one of the other reasons i chose to go to this concert was in the hopes that one of my favorite artists, BRANDY, might grace us with her presence. she has been rapping recently with her new alter-ego, Bran'Nu, on his new LP Shock Value 2 (if you don't have it, you should go pick it up. it's great!!). she has also has been performing with him at certain events so that surprise will be the icing on the cake. but i won't jump the gun lol, i'll still enjoy the party that Timbaland's gonna bring. i'll tell u about it after it happens, but until then.....

ENJOY LIFE, AND NEVER HOLD BACK!!! for anyone.

just keepin' it F0r3sT.....

there's THE creator... and then there's MY creator...

she brought in the new year with me, so it's only fitting that she kick off my new look of my blog.

FABULOUS.FIERCE.FUNKY.

love u mom....

A Tragic, but Historical Moment . . .

DISCLAIMER:

This post is for MJ fans and people that appreciate and celebrate his legacy. If you do not have anything nice or positive to say, you will be blocked and i will delete your comment. I do not mind honest opinions, but not negative ones. NOT NOW, so get over it and keep steppin.

OK, so as you all know, on Thursday, June 25, 2009, Michael Joseph Jackson died at the age 50 years old. He had a cardiac arrest (which is NOT a heart attack, there is a difference), but was probably not resuscitated in time. Then reports said that he was in a coma, which resulted in his death. While it has been almost 2 days since his death, I cannot really believe he is dead . . . like, i just can't grasp it. He was such an inspiration to me, and others around the world. He (and Janet!!) made me want to dance and master it (which is why I am somewhat of a perfectionist when it comes to that). I'm really waiting for him to come out on stage at the BET Awards, that airs on Sunday, say "And this is how you make a comeback," perform BAD with perfection at it's finest, moonwalk off, and then have us screaming for more lol. But I know that's not reality (but i really want him to do that shit on the low though).

But seriously, I was talking to my mom earlier, and the newspaper was on the kitchen table and I made sure NO ONE threw the main page out because it had MJ on it with his signature "Billie Jean" performance look, in the spotlight. I was like, "UNH UNH, let me put this in a safe place because this will not be thrown out. This is a historical piece of paper right here." And she agreed because it truly is. As tragic as this moment in time is, it's a very historical moment as well. I told her we've lost the 2nd greatest man to ever live. She corrected me though and said he is the 3rd. Let me get you into the list:

1. The GREATEST man to ever live: GOD
2. The 2nd greatest: BARACK OBAMA
3. The 3rd greatest: MICHAEL JACKSON

I couldn't disagree with that lol. I mean, we have immortalized MJ so much throughout of his entertainment career, we really did not expect for him to die. Like one of my friends said in her status on Facebook, I really thought I would die before he would (and I'm so sincere about that lol). It just does not feel real to me yet. I just know that now, more than ever, people are coming for the KING OF POP title now. Of course, they will all say that they can never be like Michael Jackson (AND THEY BETTER BELIEVE THAT SHIT), but deep down they think it's their chance. NO NO. That will never happen, in anyone's lifetime. We can have all of the Chhris Brown's, Usher's, and Ne-Yo's in the world, but it will never be to the perfection, and precision, that is MICHAEL JACKSON. So, if anyone who wants to be in the entertainment industry that is striving to become a singer/entertainer and reads this, all I ask of you is to please be ORIGINAL. Yes, Michael Jackson wrote the rule book on how to become the KING OF POP, but in order for you to be the new King, you must change the rules and bring originality. He can be imitated, but NEVER DUPLICATED. Understand it, and keep it moving.

As for the media, this autopsy business . . . that shit is for the birds. I honestly do not care how he really died, but I guess inquiring minds still want to know. He has passed, let him rest in peace. I won't be tuning in for that speech, I'll probably hear it from my mom or my uncle later on during that day. Also, this "where does that leave the kids?" business . . . last time i checked, they had mothers. Oh yeah, and THE JACKSON FAMILY!!!! The media can be so damn stupid lol. Plus, he has a will (I think), and I'm sure the kids are going to have a place to call home, as well as other things that he has left behind.

One of my mother's friends asked what was the purpose for all of the media coverage for him. All she knew was that he allegedly molested children. She also said it seemed like the world stopped for him. WELL, it did!!! Despite all the controversy in his life, all the negativity and mystery that came with Michael Jackson, you could not deny what this man was about as a whole: an entertainer who touched the lives of millions with his music and videos. All that he has done for THE WORLD surpasses the negative. He was massive and his collection of work will live on forever for generations to appreciate. He will never be forgotten, WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!!!

From a true MJ fan, and others . . . . WE LOVE YOU MICHAEL!!!!

Michael Joseph Jackson

August 29, 1958-June 25, 2009