i know it's been a while since my last blog. i know i always say that whenever i make a new blog and that this is the time that i will keep a consistent log of my life. that clearly won't be the case anymore, but i just felt the need to express some feelings.
last week i ended an on again-off again 7 year relationship with my ex-boyfriend. i really didn't want to do it, but i felt that it was the best thing for us to do. there are certain things i want out of a relationship that he is not necessarily ready for. while frustrating, it's understandable from his point of view. everyone needs time for certain situations in life, but there also comes a time where you should be able to sacrifice certain things for a relationship that is for the benefit of your future with your significant other. i would probably feel differently about certain issues that presented itself recently if i was 5 years younger, but i'm 25 going on 26 and i have to start thinking about the future in all aspects of my life. i can't let life pass me by with "what ifs" on anything that involved a better life. i just wish he could have realized that before. but i wish him the best though.
so now, i have to basically start over in the relationship game. it's a little different nowadays because i'm not the young, fresh (maybe still fresh) & new, and slightly naive guy that i once was, and all i had to do was walk in a place, get noticed, and maybe leave with a number or two lol. i'm a little older and i actually have to put forth some effort, which requires "game" . . . that i don't have lol. i may not be as young, but i can still be super shy, especially if it's someone that i think is cute and i could be in to. but at the moment, i'm not necessarily looking. but if the right person just happens to come along, who am i to say that i'm not interested?
my friends want me to enjoy my life as a single guy for a while. while i will enjoy this time of single life, i will not be the whore of babylon. one friend in particular wants me to be that whore. that is soooo not happening. even my mom thinks that it's not such a bad idea to be a borderline whore!! what?! i was so shocked. she said, "you can have your dalliances here and there, but don't be a whore baby. and make sure you protect yourself." so not a full on whore, but an escort . . . i mean is there really a difference these days? lol. anyways, i've thought about it but i don't know if i'll even go that far. i'm sorry but regardless of my marital status, i am a hopeless romantic and that applies with every "dalliance" that i may encounter. but i'll have fun though, because i am essentially a fun guy to be around.
some things just happen for a reason, but there's no need for the bad things in life to keep you down as long as you have positive things and people around you. also, being productive is good as well, so you don't think too much about it. so the moral of this blog is to HAVE FUN . . . SMILE . . . LOVE (despite anything) . . . and LIVE. and after you do all of that . . . REPEAT.
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